humans are simple creatures.. we are happy when we have plans. something to look forward to. some shit to do to fill the otherwise empty moments. most unfortunately, when we are single and we have reached a pinnicle of self-improvement due to time spent in such status, we begin destructive introspection. questioning what the fuck [...]
Monthly Archives: June 2006
so I’m washing my face, brushing my teeth before a “nights rest” aka brief nap and I look at myself in the mirror and wonder, who is going to enjoy this ridiculously hot guy tonight? oh, that’s right. nobody. I’m talkin’, seriously orlando bloom or matthew mcconaughey h o t. yeah. damnit.. look good but [...]
of all the other shit going on today, why am I thinking about her every other freaking second? whether it’s the moments my concentration breaks for the 400th time, or the few minutes my eyes rest shut out of complete lack of sleep due to the craziness going on and my inability to shut up [...]
short lived indeed.. my tender heart is heavy all over again…. yet nothing has changed one bit since yesterday or day one for that matter. ok… so I had a few dreams… sweet dreams filled with her smile and echos of her laughter… apparently just that is enough fuck me over. I’m so unhappy this [...]
as my social web expands and contracts (presently in the former stratum) I find myself realizing how much I value my independance. I am so fortunate to be so free. no one depends on me but myself. no ones happiness but my own. besides my family, (and my job which I could go on and [...]
it’s 110 degrees outside right now. it’s hell and I can’t find my handbasket anywhere. what a great day it would be to go tubing. shame I have no friends. although it could be worse, I could have shitty friends and my bedroom a/c could not be working. otherwise I am shitty; I think it’s [...]
you know you’re screwed up when these songs make you choke up a bit… pop or not, these do describe me right now rather well. Another day, is going by I’m thinkin’ about you all the time But you’re out there And I’m here waitingAnd I, wrote this letter, in my head Cuz’ so many [...]
isn’t pain suppose to subside over time? not increase in intensity, in effect… every day is exactly the same.
today is just not going well. i.e. frustrating as fuck. as an example of how I feel: imagine being 15 seconds from your destination, after a 30 some odd minute commute. suddenly, last hurdle becomes a mile long train. 15 seconds slowly turns into 5 minutes. irritation ensues… my concentration and focus keep breaking. I’m [...]
one of these days alice… one of these days…. straight to the moon! what the fuck is the next big thing. something new needs to grab the world’s web experience. it will be: -entertaining (pandora, homestarrunner, youtube & myspace …as much as I dislike those last two) -pretty and modern (cssplay.co.uk has so many neat [...]
I feel totally lost. after speaking to my friend today, mostly about her vacation and newly found aspirations for country livin’ I feel even more lost. her ambition – whether she understands it or not – does not conciously include me. I want to be apart of her life, but she won’t (or can’t) let [...]
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