humans are simple creatures.. we are happy when we have plans. something to look forward to. some shit to do to fill the otherwise empty moments. most unfortunately, when we are single and we have reached a pinnicle of self-improvement due to time spent in such status, we begin destructive introspection. [...]
Monthly Archives: June 2006
tgif? hardly.
30-Jun-06random drunk epiphany
30-Jun-06so I’m washing my face, brushing my teeth before a “nights rest” aka brief nap and I look at myself in the mirror and wonder, who is going to enjoy this ridiculously hot guy tonight? oh, that’s right. nobody. I’m talkin’, seriously orlando bloom or matthew mcconaughey h o t. yeah. [...]
heartfelt diversions…
29-Jun-06of all the other shit going on today, why am I thinking about her every other freaking second? whether it’s the moments my concentration breaks for the 400th time, or the few minutes my eyes rest shut out of complete lack of sleep due to the craziness going on and my inability to [...]
kjadlhgkjahdsjghadsl
27-Jun-06short lived indeed.. my tender heart is heavy all over again…. yet nothing has changed one bit since yesterday or day one for that matter. Â ok… so I had a few dreams… sweet dreams filled with her smile and echos of her laughter… apparently just that is enough fuck me over. Â I’m so unhappy this [...]
I don’t need anyone!
26-Jun-06as my social web expands and contracts (presently in the former stratum) I find myself realizing how much I value my independance. I am so fortunate to be so free. no one depends on me but myself. no ones happiness but my own. besides my family, (and my job [...]
hot
24-Jun-06it’s 110 degrees outside right now. it’s hell and I can’t find my handbasket anywhere.
what a great day it would be to go tubing. shame I have no friends. although it could be worse, I could have shitty friends and my bedroom a/c could not be working.
otherwise I am shitty; I think [...]
cheesy pop song lyrics …
23-Jun-06you know you’re screwed up when these songs make you choke up a bit…
pop or not, these do describe me right now rather well.
Another day, is going by
I’m thinkin’ about you all the time
But you’re out there
And I’m here waitingAnd I, wrote this letter, in my head
Cuz’ so many things were left [...]
hello crazy
22-Jun-06isn’t pain suppose to subside over time? Â not increase in intensity, in effect…
every day is exactly the same.
difficult morning
21-Jun-06today is just not going well. Â i.e. frustrating as fuck.
as an example of how I feel: imagine being 15 seconds from your destination, after a 30 some odd minute commute. Â suddenly, last hurdle becomes a mile long train. Â 15 seconds slowly turns into 5 minutes. Â irritation ensues…
my concentration and focus keep breaking. Â I’m back to [...]
the next big thing is….?
16-Jun-06one of these days alice… one of these days…. straight to the moon!
what the fuck is the next big thing. something new needs to grab the world’s web experience.
it will be:
-entertaining (pandora, homestarrunner, youtube & myspace …as much as I dislike those last two)
-pretty and modern (cssplay.co.uk has so many neat things, [...]
forcing love to stop
15-Jun-06I think I’ve been pretty unlucky in love in my relatively short lifetime.
it’s better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all.
or so they say… does that apply when neither person has ceased loving one another, and the reason for separation is beyond concensus? blah.
…my dear Jeanie; I love her [...]
I feel totally lost. after speaking to my friend today, mostly about her vacation and newly found aspirations for country livin’ I feel even more lost. her ambition - whether she understands it or not - does not conciously include me. I want to be apart of her life, but she won’t [...]
can’t f’n watch!
13-Jun-06ok, call me a pansy, but I can’t watch certain drama’s unfold. lately I’ve been watching Rescue Me and this fuckin’ guy - played by dennis leary (main character) - is such a fuckup asshole liar, he almost always has his way. and now that it’s about to come crashing down, a face [...]
want to post blah
08-Jun-06I want to post something … even if it’s nothing. I know, each day, as I do my web-rounds, even the smallest update gives me renewed hope.. as if my piddley blog is on anyones daily rounds - honestly I sorta hope not
well. lets see… I’ve been drinking. pretty much all week. [...]
suuuch a bummer
02-Jun-06I am hurting bad today. I want nothing more than to hear from her, and nothing else can make the feeling go away. but I’ve done all I can.
“set them free, if they comes back it’s meant to be“
